Dear Insurance Company I looked into...

FUCK. YOU.

When someone considers signing up with you and fills out the forms after deciding to go ahead and do it, checking the "do not contact me by email" box on the fucking form; that means they do not want their email tied to your damned company. That does not mean they want you to hand their email address off to various mailing lists for other insurance companies or retarded ass dating sites. That means they do not want umpteen fucking emails about auto insurance and various other bullshit. What use would I have for a damned christian dating site? When I call four damned times and you say you'll take care of it, I call bullshit. You shouldn't have fucking done it in the first place, you shit eating assholes. I do not appreciate my inbox being flooded with stupid shit I have no interest in. I do not appreciate having to select the option to block email from anyone who isn't on my contact list just because you are assholes who sell off peoples email addresses to other companies.

Sometimes...

I regret being an internet hermit. There are so many awesome people I've communicated with online; people I think are fucking awesome/hilarious/deep/brave, etc. People I actually don't mind chatting with; hell, people I enjoy chatting with. I may not say it, but I think these people are great and are some of the people that make the internet great. Yet, I don't stay in touch and really only communicate with them when an old forum we all used to frequent gets a breath of life once every year or so, when a new one is born from the ashes of said old forum, or when I actually stop being a dick and get on MSN. I honestly think that there are more sightings of the Loch Ness Monster then there are instances of me actually making an effort to communicate with people online. Sure, I've been posting on Gamefaqs, but not because I actually want to communicate with people; I've pretty much just been arguing over stupid shit with no intentions of maintaining any sort of conversation that doesn't involve a quick, impersonal reply or calling someone stupid. Yeah, yeah, I'm an angry person who likes to yell at people, that's not really news.

Still, I regret not staying in touch with people I don't hate. I feel like an asshole and start getting down on myself a bit because I'm such a douche for refusing to make an effort; instead opting to lurk on Youtube, various blogs I happen upon and random forums. I've tried altering my personality in the past when I was active on certain forums, becoming a yes man, posting stupid/funny pictures and letting my anger towards various things dictate when, what, and how I posted. Sure, I attempted to carry on normal conversations, but not completely as myself; the (mostly) unfunny guy who's kinda serious, doesn't get jokes most of the time with an ego the size of the moon(though I may have become a bit more humble; possibly). Of course, other people probably saw through my attempts at slightly altering my personality and had me figured out before I actually did.

The funny thing is, I enjoyed being active when I wasn't completely being myself, even if some part of me hated it. Ever since I just stopped giving a shit about making an effort, I've been unable to bring myself to communicate with people I don't hate online on a semi-regular basis. I'm an unfunny, serious, slightly egotistical pessimist and because of that, I don't think I'd be someone's go-to guy for hanging out online or having a semi-serious; let alone serious discussion. I know that's not true; for the most part, but in the back of my head, there's this nagging voice that's cropped up in the last few years that says "nobody wants to hear you bitch about your life or why you hate humanity this week". That voice won't go away either. I'll post my opinions about something and that voice will berate me for being an idiot and posting.



Man, I can be such a downer. Pretty much any blog or personal website I've maintained was full of "woe is me, my life sucks/the universe hates me" posts. Jeez, I really need to lighten up, huh? Not to much though, I don't want to lose that pessimistic outlook that let's me bitch about things on the internet...like everyone else. Heh, gotta be able to laugh at yourself, right?

Huh...

Another post having something to do with politics? Why not? Now, it's not going be eloquent and it may come off as something an average joe with a very basic understanding of the subject would say; but I did mention I wasn't exactly in the know about politics.


First off, I'm glad Obama was re-elected. I'm not going to pretend that I know what I'm talking about, but from what I've heard, it's the best possible outcome. First off, all those campaign ads mentioning Romney having multiple offshore and foreign accounts did not sit right with me. The man comes from money and has absolutely no right preaching about how he's going to fix the economy; among other things he promised. His plans to abolish Medicare really raised the warning flags...all of them, in fact. I know people on Medicaid and Medicare, they can't afford the healthcare and medicine they need without it. Nearly all of the ads against Obama have something to do with Obamacare; it's rare that I've seen in ad in the past two months that wasn't "Obamcare Bad".

Sure, Obama's plans seem to be moving at a snail's pace, but to be fair, he does have to clean up the mess made by the moron who held the position of president for eight years before him. That can't be easy, but three years into his first term, he did something that the moron said he was going to do for eight years, but never did.

Then there's this: http://www.examiner.com/article/mitt-romney-cuts-off-campaign-workers-credit-cards-leaves-workers-stranded

This is what a sore loser is. He lost the race and got pissy and most of the people who worked on his campaign were left high and dry because of it. These people took the time and made the effort for his campaign and he has the nerve to do this. He is a rich bastard, but he can't afford to at least allow his campaign workers to pay for a cab/bus ticket/plane ticket home; he has to pull the plug and leave some poor shmuck from Montana stranded in New York, where he was campaigning for him? That stupid douche probably realized that this would happen and probably got a chuckle out of it when he cut the funding on thousands of peoples credit cards.


I'll say it again; I'm glad Obama was re-elected. I seriously would have packed my bags and left the country if Romney won. Now, I'm not saying that a Republican president is a bad thing, but so far, I prefer the Democrat side of things; there's a smaller chance of people being royally screwed by them, though I suppose it varies depending on the person and not the party, too.

Well...

Fuck Republicans.



Wait, wait, before I get any hate thrown at me, let me elaborate.

I don't keep up with politics, I think they are a cluster fuck of stupidity. I would rather remain oblivious and just hope shit doesn't get screwed up too bad when someone new gets a seat of power. But lately, everywhere I go on the internet, I see the most fucked up bullshit since I read about some woman snapping a photo of a person injured and dying on the street wither phone and not fucking calling an ambulance; in this fucking country that everyone says is so damned great. Anyway, I'm reading some real ridiculous shit about republicans; apparently senate candidates, senate members and presidential candidates don't think rape is all that severe, and that there are varying degrees of severity. They think a pregnancy that is the result of a rape is a gift from god. They think for some women it's an inevitably and should be accepted, they are against abortion unless it's a "forcible rape" as classified by them. Some mouth breathing piece of filth from twenty years back even said something along the lines of "it's inevitable, so relax and enjoy it".

Every rape is forcible and these people are the biggest fucking morons in existence. They should be lined up and violated with a railroad spike wrapped in barbed wire and coated in rubbing alcohol. Then they shouldn't be able to file charges because it was a "Justifiable Rape", which is a term I'm sure one of these abhorrent pieces of shit will come up with eventually.

Usually, when I tell people I hate humanity, they ask why. This one of the reasons; wastes of space like this are authority figures. Seriously, why the fuck are these people allowed to speak? Oh, Romney endorsed one of those fucktards, too, just FYI. I feel sorry for the Republicans out their that aren't deplorable fucksacks of idiocy, I really do. My condolences to those of you who are lumped in with these jackholes.



Oh yeah, I'm not dead.















Geez this world fucking sucks, I want a do-over.

Son of a Bitch!

I am kicking myself right now. I am mentally berating myself like there's no tomorrow. Why am I doing this? Because I just missed an opportunity to copy paste a goddamned webcomic in an internet argument; and it would have been completely fucking relevant, too! I shouldn't have fucking backed out of the argument in the last post I made, goddammit! It would have been fucking perfect, glorious, mag-fucking-nificent!

For about three years, I've been trying to recapture the rush I felt when arguing with people who posted something so damned stupid I just felt compelled to call them on it. Before then, I was just going through the motions, ignoring internet arguments and just lurking like a kid who passes the toy store that used have this amazing toy he wanted, couldn't afford, worked hard to earn the money for, ran to the store to buy it, find out it was just sold and sighs solemnly every time he passes the store and sees the spot in the window it used to occupy. Apparently, my mind has traveled back in time about forty or fifty years to when this analogy was relevant. I've been hoping that there was some internet community that was still active and that stupid people or people who posted stupid shit frequented and it wasn't facebook or twitter. I had given up hope; then I started posting on gamefaqs again. Here I am, having a grand ole' time reliving what I've come to love about the internet; calling people on their bullshit and I miss a goddamned opportunity to do it!

Don't let my last post fool you, that was a glimpse of the old me, the awesome me, the me I loved being even though I'd sometimes find something so stupid or get so damned exasperated at trying to explain how a person was being a stupid jackass to the person themselves, I ended up getting a headache from trying to comprehend the stupidity. I fucking loved every minute of and now that I have finally managed to start reliving it a bit, I make a goddamned rookie mistake and bow out of the argument before making this person look like even more of an ass. The me from five years ago is pissed and I can't blame him. I have forgotten how to be a typhoon of rage and common sense on the internet and I am ashamed of myself. My time as an internet hermit has obviously taken it's toll on my ability to call people on their bullshit.


Oh well, at least I have my health and my you-goddammit previous post! Now I feel old again, fuck!

Yes, I'm Still Alive,

and really have nothing to say. Nothing interesting has happened, my life still is(and always will be) sub-par and...


Yeah, I'm going to rant now.


I've been posting on Gamefaqs(yes I have an account and an urge to interact with morons, apparently) and I've been seeing a lot of arguments about priced DLC and how most of the time it's "locked on disc". Normally, this wouldn't be a major thing to me, but the majority of the people posting about it are fucking idiots. It's pretty much common knowledge that Microsoft set a requirement for all dlc to be priced and has been known to refuse to let free dlc be released and any free dlc that is released was either the result of a drawn out battle between MS and the publisher(s)/devs or a game doing so damned well it wouldn't really be a big hit to release some free dlc. Apparently, people don't understand this has been a normal practice in gaming for quite a while now and how similar tactics have been a part of business as a whole since like, forever. They'd much rather call the devs and publishers evil, bitch about it on a forum they most likely don't monitor and then call anyone who calls them on their stupidity mindless sheep and 'white knights' because apparently; presenting even a semi logical counter argument means you're blindly defending the publishers/devs.

Apparently people also don't understand that they're not being forced to buy optional dlc and that even though ten bucks is overpriced for a pack of skins/new models; it's still not a lot of money, even in this economy. Even when three dlc packs containing skins/new models cost ten bucks each it's still not that much; even for someone who's poor especially if you have a basic understanding of how to budget your money. Even then, you can go out and mow a few lawns and earn sixty bucks. But no, people want to bitch about how optional content is priced and can't seem to grasp that gaming is big business these days and that's how business works.



Fucking people these days have no grasp of hard work, it's all about goofin' off; playing with their damned cell phones instead of working and feeling entitled to free stuff instead of paying for it or earning it.

I didn't just make a joke, that was serious. I'm a lazy bastard myself, but I don't act like I'm entitled to free shit unless it was guaranteed as free with a purchase of something else or for signing up for some service or unless I actually earned it; in which case it's not really free.



Thank you internet, you have managed to make me feel old; again. Seriously, I swear I'm not old; sure I am a couple of years away from hittin' thirty but that's not old, no matter what those brightly colored JRPGS say. Mentally, I may be a bit like a crotchety old man, but that's personal preference, not age. I've never liked raging parties, I can't stand techno(You'll forgive an old man if he's misinformed about what's big in music these days, won't you?) and I'm not "hip" to what's in style, but I'm young at heart; I think.

Ugh...

Wheeeee, it's time for a "My Life Sucks" post! Oh boy, oh boy, what is it now, family drama? Something about the majority of the human race being fuckwads that don't give a shit about anyone but themselves? Nope, it's my very first post about how I suck! Ooh, this'll be great, I'm gonna love typing this!


So yeah, I feel like crap. I'm lamenting the fact that I pretty much completely neglected to lay the groundwork for some sort of future life that I would be exceedingly happy living about seven or eight years ago. I made no plans and I have absolutely nothing to show for it. I could've applied myself and wound up with a career that I love and some sort of life. I didn't really make much of an effort and now I'm stuck doing odd jobs and bouncing from various jobs that usually seem more permanent when I get hired. Either I get laid off because of cutbacks or some shit, get fired because I don't function well with moronic assholes who could be replaced by chimps that would do a better job or I quit because of them or a jackass boss whose stupidity and assholishness would wind up screwing me, or someone else over big time. I'm incapable of ignoring it because the last time I did, I started having stomach pains and I don't want to wind up getting a goddamned stress ulcer because of that shit.

So, I'm stuck with a crappy life, trying to find a steady job that won't force me to deal with assholes I'm not allowed to beat senseless and no prospects for a better life. I've come to accept this and that just depresses me. Yes, I know I can take an online course or something along those lines and take a step to better my life, but it's to damn late for that. I don't really have the skills to warrant making a huge effort and by the time I developed any, it'd be too late. Anything to do with any sort of college courses would be a total waste. I don't have the money to survive and try to better myself and I've always been a fan of surviving. My best bet is to hope I get over this whole having morals and being a semi-decent human being thing and manage to get a job that doesn't require a lot of skill.




So yeah...I needed to vent. I've been holding onto that for quite a while and I just couldn't deal with not saying something about it any longer. I'm not going to wallow in self pity and despair and go all emo, I just needed to get that off my chest so I can maybe stop dwelling on it so damned much.

Not Dead...Yet

I'm still alive and kicking, I just haven't had much to post about, plus I've been playing Fall of Cybertron a lot, too. Speaking of, the game is awesome, I personally like that the chapters focus more on a single character than three you can choose from. The story itself was great, especially the ending that leaves it open for another sequel to continue the story. But let's get to the best part of the game; Grimlock. Grimlock is awesome. Playing as a fire breathing space T-Rex is awesome. I like how they handled the Dinobots as a whole. Grimlock is still a rage fueled crusher of Decepticons but they didn't turn him into a stupid death lizard like the old cartoon. Instead, he keeps his intelligence and just has massive anger management issues. I like the fact that he has to build up rage to transform instead of being able to do so whenever he wants. It keeps his segments from becoming "transform, walk towards goal while stomping enemies to death" cake walks. I like Swoop, too. I don't know why, but giving a fire breathing space pterodactyl a Brooklyn accent just works.

Other than that, I really don't have anything to post about. Capcom is making Ace Attorney 5 and Phoenix returns. I'm trying not to get hopeful about this because AAI2 was never localized. There's a very good chance this won't be released outside of Japan.

That's it for now, maybe I'll something to post about in a week or two.

Well, I'm Sad Now

Apparently Nintendo Power is finished. The last issue will run in December and after that, a twenty four year long era comes to a close. I dropped my subscription about thirteen years ago sometime in 1999; at least I think, it might have been sooner. After that, I subscribed to EGM for a bit then wound up with a free year of Game Informer that I didn't want a few years back. Gaming magazines had become completely irrelevant to me sometime around 2001-2002 as I had found Gamefaqs. I didn't need them anymore, so why am I sad? Simple, I was three years old when I got my first glimpse of Nintendo Power and it started a chain reaction that probably kept me a gamer.

My uncle was a gamer back then and had a subscription to the magazine. I remember seeing a small stack of the magazines at my grandma's house and the cover of the one at the top of the stack was some kind of clay art picture of Super Mario Bros. or Super Mario Bros. 2, I don't really remember. Fast forward two years to 1990; I'm five years old and I occasionally flip through my uncle's issues, but don't know what the hell they're about. Then he pops Super Mario Bros. 3 in his NES. I instantly recognize the stout mustachioed man on the screen; it's the guy from the book! So, I sit and watch and watch and watch. I just watched my uncle conquer that game. Now I know the importance of those magazines; they contain vital information relating to video games.

Skip ahead about five or six more years(memory's a tad hazy); I'm a young gamer, with a subscription to NP. I've read Howard and Nester, I had the issues with the Super Metroid comics and the Link to the Past comics. I've read the columns, the reviews, the letters and the cheats. Much of my taste in videogames has been shaped by this wondrous publication.


...In about five years I would drop it like a rock and move onto to EGM. I kept the issues I had built up, though; I think. I got rid of a lot(read: plastic storage tub full) of my old magazines a couple of years ago. After this, it was Gamefaqs and then multiple other websites. If I hadn't laid eyes on that magazine over twenty years ago, I might not have become a gamer and now that magazine is going to end in December. At least I have the memories.

Well, Fuck...

My PSP of less than two years is shot. A month and a half ago, I get a game I've been wanting to play, I put it in, turn on the system and get stuck with the start up loading screen. After trying a few more times, I check the memory card slot; no memory card. Must've shot out when the system was knocked off the table by the cat or dogs.

So, after cursing incoherently for a bit I decide to order a new eighty dollar memory card. No big deal, my progress in Legend of Heroes: Trails in the Sky, Star Ocean: First Departure, Maverick Hunter X, and Megaman: Powered Up!(Yay, now I have to start from scratch with the custom stage I was building!) is gone forever. No reason to flip out.

So, I spend a month waiting and finally get a new memory card. I download and install the system update, again and... I still can't play my games. Apparently when the system took a fall, the drive busted. I turned the system on and used a butter to press the tab that tells the system there's a disc in there. The motor doesn't spin and there's no light from the laser assembly.

So, I'm totally not flipping my shit and making up new profanities right now.


What happened to the days of quality handhelds? I remember the original GameBoy and how that thing was tough as a brick. I remember reading an old Nintendo Power article about how one was in a fire and the casing was half melted when it was found but it still played games. I remember mine hitting the floor quite a few times without any of the inner workings being fucked up. Unless it was one of the things that got looted years ago during one of my many moves, I probably still have it; buried in a plastic tote box. Hell, if I do still have it, it probably still works. If I ever com across it, I'll test out my copy of Poke'Mon Yellow on it.

Now it seems like every handheld system these days is about as tough as a flimsy plastic container. You'd think all those fancy new innards would be protected a bit better.







...Yes, I'm going to eventually buy a new PSP. It'd cost more to find digital downloads of all the games I currently have and I'm not sure they're all available as digital copies anyway.

...

Capcom's Latest Steaming Pile

THIS is what they decide to do with Megaman after cancelling Universe and Legends 3?! People wait for ten years to get Legends 3 and then we get dicked around for a year with progress updates and screenshots and fan involvement before they cancel it and their Europe branch blames the fans, when they weren't even promoting the damn game. These are the same fans that thought their involvement meant something, the fans who've waited for years for fucking closure after the cliffhanger ending of Legends 2, the fans who were absolutely elated that the sequel they've been waiting ten years for was being made! Then Capcom pretty much flips the entire damn Megaman fanbase the bird and cancels the game, despite promising to release the prototype and gauge how well that did before making a decision about it's fate.

THIS is the steaming pile of regurgitated skunk excrement that they deliver to the "fans". A crappy social phone game crossover that let's you "hur design your own Megaman". We would have been able to do that with Universe.

First, they let Breath of Fire die a slow, silent death, then two epic looking Megaman games get canned and to add insult to injury, the chances of Ace Attorney Investigations 2 being localized become exceptionally bleak.

I'm officially done with Capcom. Unless they go forward with Legends 3, they're dead to me. Maybe if they make X9; but that's never going to happen. Megaman characters have been demoted to starring in crappy phone games.

Drama

Drama, drama, drama, drama, drama, drama, drama, drama, drama, drama, drama, drama, drama, drama...











drama. Maybe if I start using physical violence, it'll finally go the fuck away. I'm seriously on edge and have no idea ho much more I can take before...well; let's just say "very bad things" start happening. The universe is really pouring it on this time. The funny thing is, this is how comic book villains are created. All it takes is one bad day and BOOM! they're tearing the multiverse a new one all because they were treated like crap/screwed over/lost a loved one.

Heh, all of that's happened to me. If I ever develop some kind of superhuman talent or skill, I'm going to devote my life to figuring out how I can use it to exact revenge on the universe, and then for shits and giggles; take over the world. Of course; if I accomplish this, I'll totally become a benevolent ruler that's all about eliminating crime completely, tolerance of other cultures, etc. It'd be like an amalgamation of Gandhi, Al Gore and Coop from Megas XLR having absolute power over the world. Peace amongst everyone, keep the environment alive and veg out watching TV and playing videogames; that would be my personal creed.

Of course, this is never going to happen and I'm stuck being one of the universe's many victims. My role in existence is taking all kinds of crap and bitching about it while simultaneously doing nothing to break the cycle.

*sigh* One of these days, I'm going to just unload and write a long ass post that tells the story of why I always let a bit of drama get me so down.

Fall of Cybertron,

has consumed me; and it's only the demo. I've spent the last week playing FoC, War for Cybertron and arguing with people on Gamefaqs about both. When the retail copy I pre-ordered arrives in the mail, I may very well spend every bit of free time I have with it for a few months; possibly longer. This is one of the few game franchises where both the single and multiplayer modes have me in their iron grip and I'm sure as hell not fighting it.

So, I'll try to keep posting, but if I don't until, like, October anyone reading this will know why. It goes without saying that my RPG Maker Blog may suffer the same inactivity, though I will try to get the screenshots I promised up sometime within the next couple of weeks.

Aaaaaand it's Another Post

Holy-I'm starting to freak myself out a bit with this posting streak I've got going, especially since I've downloaded the Transformers: Fall of Cybertron demo and may or may not be in a state of semi-fanboyish glee that has caused me to all but disappear from the internet completely in the past.

Anyway, this post is about said demo. I can't really say anything about the single player mode, though I did hear co-op campaigns are gone, which doesn't affect me since my multiplayer experience from the previous game came from escalation and the various multiplayer modes. Multiplayer is where I'm spending my time with the demo and I'm absolutely loving it. While the classes are the same(three being renamed) they seem more balanced than the previous game; (well I haven't really played the scientist yet so I'm not sure about that one).

I used to stick to Soldier and Leader in War for Cybertron and I sucked at being a Scout and Scientist so much that I hated playing as them. This time around I enjoy playing as a Scout/Infiltrator. I played a few matches as the Infiltrator and was surprised I didn't completely suck at it. I love the Path Blaster; I've dubbed it the "Jet Killer". In one match, a player from the opposing team opted to play as a Scientist. They hovered around in jet mode, raining down misslely death on my teammates. I constantly killed them with the pathblaster; It also has great aim. This match soon turned into a game of "I killed you three times in a row, you got me once" on constant repeat.

I also love the more robust character customization system for multiplayer. Right now in the demo, there isn't much, but it's great. I'm absolutely going to pre-order this game the first chance I get. I'm sure I'll enjoy it just as much as it's predecessor, if not more. Oh, wait. This one has Grimlock...I'm definitely going to enjoy it more.

Another Post?!

Wow, I'm surprisingly active for an internet hermit. On to the post:

So, for some reason thoughts of Beetlejuice pop into my head and I do a search. This is what I find:

Beetlejuice Sequel


...Why hasn't this been done yet?! Seriously, Betelgeuse vs. the spirit of a Hawaiian Kahuna in a surf contest, what's not awesome about that? I really can't think of anything else to say about this, but what else needs to be said, it's Beetlejuice, that alone guarantees it will be a hilariously horrifying good time. 

Snake Attack!

So, the other day I'm in the middle of cooking dinner and my father let's the dogs out in my place. He starts yelling in for me to come out and when I open the door, I see a black snake pinned down with a shovel. Apparently it came looking for water and nearly got chopped in half when it decided to attack. I take the dogs and my father axe chops the snake with the edge of the shovel three more times. Now it's super pissed and lunges. CLANG! Head trauma! Then three more times just to be sure it's dead. It starts moving again and the shovel slams down again, snapping in half.

Long, violent story short; it's gone. Scared the piss out of me, though. Not necessarily the snake itself so much as the fact that it was venomous and could've killed either of my dogs with one bite or put me or my father in the hospital. Reminds of this time I had an epic stupid moment and let a cousin(who I don't associate with anymore) convince me to watch the head of a snake three times as big while he grabbed the tail so ya know, I could warn him if it was about to attack him and also serve as a decoy, which I should have realized was the reason.


Sometimes, I reallllly hate nature.

Well Crap...

I WAS in a pretty damn good mood, enjoying putting some much needed effort into a couple of projects and just generally feeling content with my life until it all blew the fuck up in my face. I won't go into detail, but a close family member went out of their way to make me feel like shit after I called them on their shit...again...for like the fifth fucking time. I get all this past drama that I just want to forget thrown in my face, called a lifeless loser because I don't want to socialize with any of the drunk, homophobic racists that live in this town(aka, nearly the entire population) and just generally insulted.

Now I feel like crap and harbor some very hateful thoughts about this person, thoughts which a few years ago would have freaked me out but have increased in frequency and replaced my old thoughts about this person. Now there's only hate and disgust instead of a slight respect. At this point, I honestly don't care about this person anymore. Maybe if they offer up a sincere apology I'll start caring again, but until then, they're nothing more than an acquaintance I wish I could forget existed, which begs the question: Why do I even bother calling them on their shit? They give some spiel about how I'm right and they need to make a change but they never fucking do. Instead, I end up calling them on their shit again...and the cycle repeats itself. There are heated arguments and this person stoops pretty damn low(insulting my deceased grandparents who played a huge part in raising me) and I always refrain from stooping to their level; instead opting to take the high road. My reward for being the bigger person? I get to feel like shit.

The whole debacle raises another question, too: Why the fuck do I let anything this person says get to me? I've already pretty much stopped caring about them, so why does it upset me when they try to make me feel like an inferior nothing? I'm baffled by this and for the life of me, I can't figure why I don't just shrug it off and go about enjoying the rest of my day despite their attempts to hurt me. I've made an effort to make it known that I don't care what anyone thinks of me and if they don't like something about me or something I do, they can go bother someone who gives a shit and leave me the hell alone.

...I'm gonna go try to take my mind of this bullshit. Thinking about it just upsets me.

Update:

Drama post is irrelevant now. The matter was resolved and all is well again...for now.

RPG Maker Project Blog

I got a link to my RPG Maker project blog up. There's a bit of detail about an original series I'm working on as well as a brief history of my experience with the RPG Maker programs. I'll be maintaining this blog and the project blog for the foreseeable future, so if anyone's reading this, check back every so often to read more about what I'm up to.

GYAHAHAHAHA!

I'll never stop bouncing between the umpteen blogs and sites I've created! I'll never stop fluctuating between being active and being dead to the internets! No one can stop me from being indecisive, no one!!


...Okay, I'm done. It's been what; three years? I think I made a post or two on my Wordpress blog since then, but other than a couple of very short surges in activity at a forum that's currently in limbo, a few posts on my DA account and a bit of instant messaging; I've been hanging out in the internet waiting lounge, mindlessly browsing and vegging out on youtube videos. I did get some new videos up in the past couple of years, despite youtube deciding to hate the .wmv format. Then I stopped. I've toyed around with notion of getting back into uploading and maybe doing an actual voiced Let's Play. I'm still thinking about doing that off and on.

That's pretty much what I've been up the past few years, with ample portions of real life drama being forced down my throat occasionally. Also, I never did get anywhere with that "learn a bit of HTML" thing. Oh well, not like it would have went anywhere. I probably would have half built a website, said "fuck it" and let laziness and apathy take hold of me for the next few months. Speaking of keeping up with what I start, I'll be hanging around here for a while(until laziness and apathy take hold again). So, if you're reading this, I probably linked it on my DA page and you're one of the few people I've had contact with in the past three years.